February 2012
231 posts
Going on my personal tumblr to vent. →
tired-and-un-inspired asked: To the anon who told everyone... You seriously gave me hope. I am so happy for you! <3
Anonymous asked: But what if he does? Or what if he tells someone else? I'm not ready for everyone to know just yet. I'm not even sure I'm ready for him to know. I just...I guess I'm just really, really scared of telling anyone. I don't want to be treated differently.
Anonymous asked: Hey. I'm the girl who told everyone today. Most of my friends were supportive, I found myself the center of hugs until I told them they were making it hard to breath. My mom came and got me out of school early and cried, saying she should have known and she's so sorry she didn't. I feel better now. I know I won't stop cutting immediately but now I know I have a strong support...
Anonymous asked: Because he's the one constant thing in my life. If I lost him, then I'll lose me even more than I have. I can't lose him and I'm terrified he'll leave me if I tell him because we've had rough patches. I mean, we've always fixed them, but still. This could be one of those things were he just...leaves.
Anonymous asked: Tomorrow I am being sent to some sort of mental institution in order to overcome my addiction to cutting as well as my eating disorder. I have never been more scared in my life and I'm expecting the worst
Anonymous asked: You're a really amazing advice giver. You've helped me a lot as well as a ton of other people. Just wanted to say thanks :).
Anonymous asked: I guess if I would tell anyone, it'd be my best friend since I we were ten. He'd understand. God knows he's been with me through thick and thin.
Anonymous asked: Okay, I'll try..."A few months ago, I started cutting. I wish I hadn't, but I did. Now I can't stop. I cut because my emotions get too much and I shut off everything. I do it to feel something besides emptiness. It's been a few weeks since I've last cut, though, but the want to do it is always there. Right now, I don't need you to shut me out, to tell me...
return of the panic attacks
starrry-eyedd:
i hate my life
Anonymous asked: I want to tell people that I cut, but I'm too scared that they'll all leave me. I mean, everyone leaves me eventually, but I don't want them to leave because I'm fighting a battle no one understands unless they've gone through it themselves. I wish I could tell them, I do, but I just can't. I can't. They wouldn't understand.
Anonymous asked: Sometimes I am so tempted to tell my friends that I cut. I know they'll judge me, if only a little. But I am afraid they will see me differently if I tell them, that I'll scare them. My friends are just so.. stable, and normal. They wouldn't expect it from me, the girl who is constantly laughing and being sarcastic and loud at school. Do you think it's a good idea to tell them...
Anonymous asked: I keep writing words in my skin with my scissor. I can't stop. Everytime I feel the blood running down my legs and paiting the water, I feel like I'm alive and shining with colors like I used to be. I look to the scars and wish that everything that I wrote was true: "Free". "Beautiful". "Happy". "Mad". I wish I was everything so I wouldn't...
Anonymous asked: I have this friend, I met him a week ago and I really like him. I think he feels the same. We've stayed up all night talking last night, he's opened up to me and I want to do the same. But I'm scared to become more then friends, I'm scared that when he knows about my cutting he won't want nothing to do with me, like all my other friends and boyfriends have done. I...
thomblesinatub asked: People are so judgemental! I am a cutter and I wish I could just strut into school with my skirt at a normal length and no bracelets. but people talk, and people would look at me in a negative light. Nobody understands. I just wish everyone was nice enough to pretend to understand, or to not comment at all. But I cant do that. This monster inside me is something I cant control, it isnt me. So why...
Anonymous asked: Im tired of hiding. Tomorrow morning Im leaving my journal on the kitchen table so my mom can read it, Ive written everything about me cutting in it. And at school Im telling all my friends during lunch. I can't stay hiding any longer. Its causing me more pain then being honest. I just hope, afterwards, I still have people there for me.
Anonymous asked: I know, and his decision to take it as a joke has made me decide not to go to anyone else for help. They won't understand anyways. They can't.
Anonymous asked: There's the saying "Suicide is a permanent fix to a temporary problem", and I know it's true, and I even tell people that when they tell me they want to end their life. But when it's your own life that you want to end, you look at it from a different angle. I didn't, per se, want to kill myself. I simply wanted to stop the pain. That's all I've ever wanted....
Anonymous asked: I got the courage to tell a teacher I trusted about my cutting. He took it as a joke, he said 'okay, just don't bleed on my floor'. I took weeks to work up the courage to tell an adult, and he was the only one I trusted. He made a joke out of it, and it hurt, so I took scissors from his desk and asked for a hallpass. I cut for the first time outside my home all because he made fun...
Anonymous asked: I wasn't nervous, not at all. I was excited and happy as hell. But on the way home, my bestfriend asked if my parents went to watch me perform, and they didn't. It was bothering me all afternoon. I was reminded of Friday afternoon, and how bad I felt during class. I don't know what triggered me during class, but I wanted to end my life. I was crying because I wanted it so bad. I...
Anonymous asked: My particular choir didn't even know what songs we were meant to sing for the performance. We only got the music 5 or so minutes before we began rehearsing, which he only had to days of. My voice rang is Soprano 2, which is the second highest voice rang you can have, Soprano 1 being the highest. For the first day of rehearsal, I sang and learned Soprano 2 parts, but the second day I was told...
Anonymous asked: I can't seem to stop cutting. I'm in therapy and have tons of support, but I've never been able to go more than three days without cutting. I bring a blade with me everywhere I go, even school. I feel like I deserve the pain. I don't even know if I want to recover.
Anonymous asked: I've told a friend I cut, only after he told me someone that I talk to wanted to kill himself. My friend was shocked, I could see it in his eyes, he won't tell me the next time our other friend talks about suicide because he thinks it would trigger me. He asked me questions for three hours and when we were done talking about it he just hugged me. I'm not sure if I should feel better...
Anonymous asked: I had a choir performance yesterday morning and we recieved a standing ovation, even though most of us had only 10 hours of knowing the songs at all, myself being one of them, and I also was switched from Soprano 2 to Soprano 1 the second day of rehearsing. Last night, that happy-high crashed. I felt like nothing would ever be right, and my only two options were to either kill myself or cut. I...
Anonymous asked: I was sexualy abused for years by a relative. My parents only found out once he raped me. I was ten at the time. They blamed me, saying things like, "You should have known better." My Mother is a heavy drinker and my Father has anger issues... My best friend committed suicide April 3rd, 2010 due to bullying. I started cutting when I was twelve and bulimia when I was thriteen. I'm...
Anonymous asked: I relapsed last night after 11 days clean. I killed my friend's butterfly. I feel horrible, because my other option was to end my life.
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Ellen Hopkins
mileenalovesbacon:
“Because to tell you the truth, most of the time dying seems like pretty much my only means of escape.” Identical
